Tuesday, February 9, 2010
fall again
father lord , i am very sorry . God sorry that i can't control myself. deep inside me i don't want to hurt you but far outside me i can't control myself. i am really sorry lord
today was rather a stress day for me, it is because i am too tired. and still sick. and somemore bad thing happened today too. my friend cheat me $50 . and for nothing i just lost $50 for nothing. waaaaa. and the anger in me just rise up so fast. i don't even have time to thing about what God's feeling. haiz. now that i am broke thing gone badly wrong.
God sorry i am really sorry. God why did this thing happened to me. i know i should not ask this question. God the thing is not about the money , the thing is about what i am doing that is sin and make you unhappy. God why am i so weak why? why can't i control myself. and why is often the devil win. God give me strength give me self control and discipline make me more like you each day. God you know my heart i love you. even when my parent go agianst you i am still on your side. God i don't want to break your heat again. please be with me. let me know that you are with me every single day , hour , min , second and mili second. Forgive me lord.
i give my life to you to be the different , and to make a different in this dying world we living. to do your will and not mine , to be what you want me to be. in jesus name i pray that i will OVERCOME ALL THING THAT IS COMING AGAINST ME! amen
SIGNING OFF @ 12:20 AM