Tuesday, February 9, 2010
fall again
father lord , i am very sorry . God sorry that i can't control myself. deep inside me i don't want to hurt you but far outside me i can't control myself. i am really sorry lord
today was rather a stress day for me, it is because i am too tired. and still sick. and somemore bad thing happened today too. my friend cheat me $50 . and for nothing i just lost $50 for nothing. waaaaa. and the anger in me just rise up so fast. i don't even have time to thing about what God's feeling. haiz. now that i am broke thing gone badly wrong.
God sorry i am really sorry. God why did this thing happened to me. i know i should not ask this question. God the thing is not about the money , the thing is about what i am doing that is sin and make you unhappy. God why am i so weak why? why can't i control myself. and why is often the devil win. God give me strength give me self control and discipline make me more like you each day. God you know my heart i love you. even when my parent go agianst you i am still on your side. God i don't want to break your heat again. please be with me. let me know that you are with me every single day , hour , min , second and mili second. Forgive me lord.
i give my life to you to be the different , and to make a different in this dying world we living. to do your will and not mine , to be what you want me to be. in jesus name i pray that i will OVERCOME ALL THING THAT IS COMING AGAINST ME! amen
SIGNING OFF @ 12:20 AM
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Temptation
Temptation is not a sin , but when you add into temptation it become a sin! flee from it not add on it
there are time where devil hit us with thing we like but that thing is not good. it lead us to sin and hurt God heart. do you guy remember serving God is not an easy child playing thing. we need to put our heart ,soul and mine into it, we need to be serious. think about it , people always blame God , complaining to God. why is my ministry so hard , why no people come when i invited them. do your ask yourself why? in the 1st place did God say that serving Me will be easy? and did God blame you when you hurt his heart everytime? again and again and again? ask yourself how many time did God forgive you aready?
devil hit us with temptation everytime. and having temptation is not a sin. but when you add into it ,it become a sin. and often people add into it. how to handle? Flee from it ! not add on it. ask God to give you strength.
Dear father
i admit that i failed you alot of time aready , and your love just never failed to forgive me. i feel guity everytime i break your heart. i know that i will break your heart but my body man just do it. God i want to put a full stop to this cycle in my life. i want a breakthrough. Forgive me lord. make me new again. i know that temptation will hit me but God your Power is more powerfull than all thing that is coming toward me. father i pray for strength , self control and self discipline. fill me with your holy spirit and be with me always. i believe that i can overcome all kind of temptation that is coming toward me when i am with you. God i thank you in jesus name i pray AMEN!.
SIGNING OFF @ 1:47 PM